Well, that was cool. My mom came in to work and took me out to lunch! She had ulterior motives though- she needed help picking out a TV and moving it. So now she's got a nice flatscreen, and then bonus is, she's giving me her old one! woo! Now I'll have a TV for the upstairs! Gotta go after work to help her get it set up, then I get that other TV :D

on another note...

I wish there was something I could do for Leslie to show her how much I care about her. It's just difficult when I can't see her when I want. She's done many wonderful things for me, and I'd like to repay her the kindness. It's frustrating for me went the situation precludes that from happening. I just hope I get that chance.

Ugh. After a six-day vacation, here I am back at work. Huzzah and whatnot. It was nice to have the time off, and especially nice to be able to spend part of it with Leslie. It's always great when I can spend time with her.

I didn't do a whole heck of a lot on my vacation, mainly just hung around the house. I did go to the Indiana Beach one last time before it closed for the season. The damn gnome that Leslie wanted wasn't there, but we did manage to score some tacos. We were planning on going to Chicago the next day, but that didn't quite work out, so we went to Lafayette, and dined on chicken at Hooter's. I forgot how bland there food was, but I had giftcards, and we were tight on cash, so what the hey. Friday was spent kinda bumming around Monticello... not a whole lot to do here, but we checked out the antique mall, and I found a few things I wanted to pick up. Leslie got herself a couple new oil lamps, so that was cool.

Oh almost forgot. She made me a kickass tie-dye tapestry that I've now hung on my wall. It's frickin awesome, especially now that it's in its proper place on the wall and not on the ceiling :).

Anyhoo, Leslie had to be back at work on Saturday so we spent the rest of Friday together, ate at Sublette's (where we got shitty service, but at least the potatoes were good), then hung out at my place.

The rest of my vacation wasn't quite as exciting. I spent some time over at Tex's, grillin' out and drinkin and whatnot. I also spent some time trying to improve my Galaga '88 skills- I broke 100K! I did some cleaning around the house, but was otherwise fairly lazy. That's what vacations are all about :)

Now, back to work. At least it's only a 4 day week :)

Haven't updated in a while, so I'd figured I'd post something at least.

Leslie came up and visited me from indy last night. It was great to see her in the middle of the week, as opposed to the weekends. Didn't do much but hang out, watched some NewsRadio, and chilled, but it was pretty nice to spend time with her.

I'm taking a vaction next week, starting tuesday after work. I can't wait- I'll have 6 days off, 3 of them spent with Leslie. If things work out, we'll be going to Chicago and checking out the Shedd Aquarium and maybe the Museum of Science and Industry. I haven't been up there in a loooong time, so it should be pretty damn cool.

Anyways, back to work. I'm glad tomorrow's friday... maybe I'll get to sleep in for once! :)

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Haven't updated in awhile, so I'd figure I'd post.

I finally got started on the new SugarDog website, so hopefully that will be wrapped up by the end of next week. Depends on if I can get time provisioned where I don't have to answer the phone. I hate being interrupted when I'm in the middle of working on a project.

Going back down to Indy to hang out with Amanda, Pat, and Leslie this weekend. I guess Leslie's cooking fajitas, so that'll be fun. Gonna try and make 'em all watch Roadhouse. Hope I get to go swimming... they've got a pool in their apartment complex, but the weather was too crappy for me to swim last weekend.

Along with Trailer Park Boys, I've been watching Penn and Teller's Bullshit. Penn (and not so much Teller, becase he doen't talk) debunks and debases topics such as Religion, The War on Drugs, and even lighter topics like Bottled Water and Seconhand Smoke. Last night's show was about "Big Brother"- covering the topic of government surveillence in the post-9/11/PATRIOT ACT USA. Some scary shit. Worth a watch if you have Showtime (or can find it on the net). The Big Brother Episode is Season 3 Episode 7.

On a similar topic, someone showed me this link. More scary shit (if you own a dell laptop). Government is already too damn big. 'nuff said.

On a whim, I got an insurance quote on Geico.com. Yes I can save a WHOLE SHITLOAD of money on my car insurance. I feel like I've been ripped off by Progressive. My six month rate with Progressive is around $400. Geico quoted me $175 for minimum coverage. I'm gonna switch.

Happy Friday everyone!

Not having money for food sucks. Had to skip lunch today. Looking forward to ramen when I get home! blah.

I'm starting to like mondays a little more, because that's when I get the new episode of Trailer Park Boys. This one is Season 5 Episode 6, Don't Cross the Shit Line. So woohoo! I have something to look forward to watching tonight.

I was surprised to find that they had Carlsberg in stock at Kroger, so I managed to pick up a 12 pack of that. Damn it was tasty. I also had an idea: take pictures of the various beers I consume. It remains to be seen if I will keep up with that, but here's the first one:


Went over to Hung's last night and played some basketball. That was fun, I haven't played forever. I Haven't improved either, but I did manage to make a couple shots. I got knocked down and scraped my hands pretty badly; during the fall Tex fell on top of me, so that's got me a little sore today. Ah well, at least I got out and ran around a bit :D

Got a newsletter template designed for Heritage Eyewear, so now I have to write a newspaper article on VoIP. Yay rah, I've not written an article like that for quite some time. Once I get that knocked out, I'll start redesigning the Sugardog homepage.

Well, I feel a bit better about myself. I actually got a few things accomplished this weekend, and even today! Max, Tex, and Mike helped me move a washer and dryer, so now I'm able to do laundry at home! Woohoo! Got my laundry all washed now :D. Thanks guys! I also managed to make it out to walmart to get some things I needed, including a light bulb for over my sink... the stove light just doesn't cut it.

Today I FINALLY was able to fix a website that has been having problems since we've upgraded the MySQL server. So now that that's out of the way, I can get started on redesigning the SugarDog home page. Wee... lots of fun there! At least I've got some graphics already made up for it.

Not a whole lot on the plate for tonight, but I do have the new Trailer Park Boys episode to watch. If any of you out there haven't watched this show, you must check it out. It's a Canadian Mockumentary that follows the lives of these guys that live in a Trailer Park somewhere in Nova Scotia. They're always scheming ways to make money/get out of the trailer park, and it usually involves doing things that are less than legal. They end up in jail at the end of each season. Funny, funny stuff. I recommend you start from series 1 and watch it straight through. For you bittorrent people, you can find the episodes on Digital Distractions. Here's a link to the Trailer Park Boys' Website.

I know my life is a fucked-up mess right now. People that confirm it don't really help. I may be skinny, ugly, awkward, and a million other unflattering things, but I'm more or less a nice person.

There has been a few times lately that I just want to give it all up. I don't see the point of things anymore. I feel like I'm in a rut; nothing I do excites me anymore. I've become jaded and cynical. Why? Because what I do want out of life is simple: To find someone to love and raise a family with. That's it. What would make me happy is knowing that at the end of the day, I have someone to see, to love, to cook for, to take care of; to grow old with. The shitter of the thing is, once I find someone that I do care about, I get shit on. Every damn time. I used to believe that you reap what you sow. Well, I must've fucked up somewhere along the line and pissed off the wrong person, because no matter how well I try to treat everyone that I think I should be caring about, I get treated like shit in return. And I'm sure a big part of it is me, letting people do that to me. But who am I to stop people from doing what they want to do? Maybe it's stupid to believe that out there, somewhere, there will eventually be someone that treats me with the same respect and courtesy that I'll treat them. My prospects don't look too good.

Well, today is my mom's suprise retirement party. I can't believe that she's been teaching for so long. I can say I'm impressed with how much bullshit she's had to put up with over the years from all the kids she's taught (Including me). Now I wonder what's in store for her now that she won't be working. Probably more reading and trips to the boats! I love ya mom!

Sometimes, when something holds you back, you've got to cut the ties that bind you to it. It's the only way to move forward.

I wish you well in the future, and hope you find someone you can love as they love you.

Happy Birthday, Tianna!

1. What was your first car?



2. Pick a grandmother's name.



3. Where were you raised?



4. Where do you live now?



5. Search for your own name(but remember to just return the FIRST picture, even if it isn't you).



6. What is your favorite food?



7. The title to your favorite song.



8. What is your favorite smell?



9. What are your favorite shoes?



10. What are you thinking about the most *right now*?

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Daniel Thomas Claypool
Birthday:	December 21st, 1977
Birthplace:	Monticello, Indiana
Current Location:	Monticello, Indiana
Eye Color:	Hazel
Hair Color:	Dark Brown
Height:	5'9"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	French, British
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Same sneakers I've had for a year (Adio)
Your Weakness:	I'm vulnerable to the Crane technique
Your Fears:	Dying alone.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Lobster and Pineapple
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Find someone.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	heh.
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Where's the Tylenol
Your Best Physical Feature:	Eyes
Your Bedtime:	Usually around midnight
Your Most Missed Memory:	Her.
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	Yes
Do you Swear:	Occasionally
Do you Sing:	Yes
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes
Have you Been in Love:	Yes
Do you want to go to College:	Have been. Need to go back
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	Sometimes.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Yes
Do you think you are Attractive:	Sometimes.
Are you a Health Freak:	No.
Do you get along with your Parents:	Yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	When I'm inside.
Do you play an Instrument:	A few: Guitar, Saxophone, Piano, Percussion, various other woodwinds.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	No
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been called a Tease:	No
Ever been Beaten up:	Yes
Ever Shoplifted:	No
How do you want to Die:	when I'm 84, in a fit of passionate lovemaking.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	happy.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Pretty much anywhere in Western Europe

Woot! I finaly got my Cigarettes in the mail! yay! It took long enough to ship 'em, but I ordered them from the Ukraine, so it's a bit understandable why it took 3 weeks. This is what I got, though I ordered from a different site, and I got a cheaper price. I'm just glad they came. Now I just need to get some scotch, and I'm set for a decent weekend :)

Well, I'm pretty much unpacked at the new place. I took some pictures of the downstairs... wanna see? I still need pix of the upstairs... maybe that'll come later.

Well, I have most of my stuff over at the new place. It's strange here, but at least I have internet. I don't have cable, but I do have my TV, 5.1 reciever, and DVD player hooked up. Now all that's left is a LOT of unpacking and to clean up the old place (sweep, mop, scrub the tubs and sinks).

I think I'll come to like it here, I just need another TV for the upstairs- I suppose the computer will do for the time being :) . It's odd (and tiring) to have to come upstairs to get on my computer. At least I have a faster connection now!

Well, I should probably get to bed. I took Monday off, and I should have taken off today, but unfortunately, I have to be up in 6 hours.

Night folks. Gonna watch "The Kids in the Hall" Season 1 :P

So here I am in my old place, and most of the furniture is out. My sleeping bag is rolled out if front of the TV- this is the last night I'll be here. I'm scared to go alone to this new place.

It's just so fucking hard, when the person that you could rely on and trust the most suddenly takes all of that away from you. Who can I talk to? Who else cares if I'm there? Nobody now.

Fuck I want to type so many things.

Goodnight and goodbye instead.

Hung out with my now ex-uncle Brian tonight. Had a GREAT time. Filet Mignon, Guitar, Beer... good times :) Plus we got a chance to talk, which is always nice. I dunno, I'm a bit drunk, but I had a hell of a time tonight :D